Wide Awake in a World That Sleeps

Well, here I am, keeping my promise, and posting later this week. I wouldn't have bet on me, but it looks like I would have lost.

This is going to be a fun post, or at least I hope it's a fun post. It's fun for me at the very least. Tonight I found some videos on Youtube from the VNV Nation concert taken by a guy who was right behind us, so you will get to see us, and you'll get to see some of Ronan's interludes between songs. ^_^

Video one: The large head (made large by hair) in the very first frame of the video is Rosales; the smaller head cut off on the far right of the very first frame is me (^_^); the hand that comes up to point after Ronan's first comment and just before he says, "no, seriously" is Rosales; the short, deep laughs you hear immediately after Ronan's comment about ridiculing people are me and Rosales (and probably some others as well, but they're not important); right after Ronan announces the title of the photo he is having taken, a b/w striped arm with glow sticks appears - that's Alex; the hand sign that gets thrown up on the far right after Ronan's comment about calling himself a lady is me; Rosales' head and Alex's glowing striped hand appear a few more times on the right as the video ends.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9a4JaI4Fmyc

Video two: Rosales' head can be seen when the lighting permits.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QUf8KPQWzVA

Video three: Two striped-sleeved, glowstick-wielding hands - Alex; right after Ronan says he's from Ireland the camera zooms out and a hand gets in the way for a second - that's me (my ring is visible if you go to that particular frame).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZcnSUKo-mbg

^_^ Three videos that I hope stay on Youtube for a while, as I would really enjoy reliving some of these moments when there are no concerts for me to attend. Three videos where Ronan Harris speaks. Three reminders of how awesome that concert was.

I apologize if you find the fact that I'm pointing out myself and friends in the videos a little vain, but honestly - it's a blog about my life, and the people in it; at least I'm not pointing out random people that I don't know. Seriously.

In some other news, I found out today that I have more money in grants scholarships and loans than I need for tuition over the school year. This means I can get the excess and use it for school supplies, like a new Macbook Pro!!! Finally I will be able to get a computer that won't crash on me when it feels like it, and I'll be able to get the full version of either Adobe CS3 or CS4! Plus it will also double my storage space, and I'll be getting a couple accessories to go with it and make it work out for me. I'd also like to modify it a teeny-tiny bit, but I'm still working out how. I don't want to do anything to the physical body of the case, but I would like to do something so that instead of the apple glowing on the back, it would be the Vampire Vineyards logo. I have some red transparent plastic sheeting I can use for the color, but I need to sort out the other details later. As much as I love the aesthetic design of the new Macs, I would really like to be able to customize it a bit to make it more...me. It's another project I can add to the list, but I think it can wait until I actually have the Mac. That's my new dilemma - getting the Mac. I need it in the first week of school, BUT I can't get the excess money from my loans/scholarships until I get to school and fill out some papers and then wait another two weeks. So I'm hoping something will work out, because I'd like to not have to drop a required class for that reason - it'd be really lame.

Well, I'm going to be off, one more day of work tomorrow, and then I'm free for the rest of summer. Sunday I have tentative plans to hang out with one friend, and Monday I have pretty solid plans to hang out with another friend. Then I'm off to visit my aunt, and to return later in the month for more visits. Should be lots of fun! ^_^

Cheers,

Shadow of Light

A Choir Full of Longing...

Title tonight from Covenant's 'Call the Ships to Port'. Great song - nice beat, good lyrics, nice medium of heavy house/club music and trance. Been singing along with it most of the last hour. Before that I was still listening to Combichrist's 'Electrohead'.

I wasn't planning on blogging again until the end of this week, but I had a pretty eventful day. Today I rescued my books!! I also did laundry, replied to one of my roommates on Facebook, and will eventually trim my beard sometime this evening.

The books are the exciting part though (although the fact that I'm washing ALL my clothes made rescuing my books in a robe a lot more adventurous). The back story of it goes something like this: A few years ago I started cleaning my room, and I was putting things in boxes to organize them, and all my favourite books of that time were put into a 'book box'. During the time that I was cleaning my room however, my aunt visited and assisted, and we got a good chunk of my room clean in a day instead of the week I had planned on. It was during this epic sweep however, that the book box was placed at the bottom of a pile of other things (boxes, toys, clothes, etc.), and being the weak little 10 y/o that I was, I could not pull out a 70lb box from the bottom of a pile stacked to the ceiling of a bunch of other heavy things. And so all my favourite books were lost to myself and the world forever.

Until today...

♪doo-doooooo♪

(An Obelisk of Light Production)

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(In Association with I Want Justice Entertainment)

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Found!

♪do-do-do-daam♪

(Staring:)

(Mr. Maximus - me!)

(The Rosaler - Himself)

(Narrator - Pyle's wraith)

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♪DOO-DOO♪

It started in the morning, a day like any other. Mr. Maximus had just finished putting the laundry into the basket to take it to be washed, his robe billowing about his ankles as he paced between his laundry pile and the hamper, eyes still shadowed by the remnants of sleep, and bed head sticking out into the vastness of the house. He scratched the shaggy hair growing past the boundaries of his beard lost in thought in the moment and reflecting on his week.

As he stood in the stillness and let his thoughts flow over him he thought back to the memory of a box of treasured books once used to keep them safe until it had been lost forever. He thought of his cousin, of how some of the books would be perfect for his current reading level, and of the other books he had once treasured and loved and if he might ever see them again.

It was then that he came back to his senses and standing in front of his room's door, he wondered if he might dare enter and quest for his lost treasures. He thought about the books he wanted to read, but could not bring himself to go just for himself; but the thought of his cousin drove him to decide to quest into the depths of the room and bring out the great tome of knowledge. He set out by clearing the debris that had gathered over the years in front of the great opening to the abyss. Little by little, he cleared a way to enter, and bracing himself he clambered over the last of the debris and into the darkness of the realm beyond. Upon entering, the lighting immediately changed, and he found his eyes adjusting to the glow emitted from windows that had once gazed out upon a great world and vast empire, but that now stood half-shut looking out upon a world of hypocrisy and corruption. Looking back just once, he set forth through the now alien realm scanning his surroundings for signs of other things lost and forgotten.

After several minutes of treacherous hiking over2 ground layered by the remnants of a previous life, while staying away from the dens of strange creatures made up of legs and eyes, Maximus came upon a familiar shape buried in old skins. Brushing the skins aside he found one of his only pieces of useful furniture, a small(-ish) entertainment center that would serve him well upon his return to the distant magic academy, where despite his best efforts he had yet to turn water into wine. He hoisted his new treasure onto a plinth near him so he might return by the same way and take it along with him.

He ventured further through his surroundings, fighting off the vicious monsters that swung down from above him and crawled from their dens to cling to his bare legs, struggling over unstable ground and pathways filled with debris that left deep gouges as he scraped by them, unprotected. Eventually he made it to the back of the Abyss, where an eerie and unholy wind whipped about him, biting at his hands and face. He searched through squinted eyes at the largest pile of debris yet, and saw at it's base a gleam of gold where the chest he sought lay covered and trapped. Setting down the small collection of items he had found along his travel, he began to dig through the pile, carrying the larger pieces away from his work. Breathing heavy, he thought of having the help of someone familiar with the vast and terrible world around him. He thought of the greatest of the travelers that he knew, The Rosaler. The man had seen the terrors of the abyss, and yet his bravery never wavered any time he had had to venture forth into it.

Finally Maximus reached the great chest that held his books, and heaving it out of another pile, he lifted the lid and saw the treasure inside...

...Aaaaaand that's a pretty good description of what I had to do to get the books, with a few artistic liberties taken to make it sound more exciting, but not many - the room really is a mess, that's part of the reason I've slept on the couch for the last 7 years. In the end I made it out, and with quite a haul! I set out my entertainment center to take back to school, I also found two packs of cedar planks that I can use for projects, some sandpaper, some craft stuff, a book I bought my Freshman year of high school when I wanted to learn how to draw (unfortunately I never really got into the book, but I have it again and I'm going to go through it and work on some of the lessons), and a few other odds and ends. Getting into the book box was the real haul though, I got the books I wanted for my cousin, a set of 17 of the 'Great Illustrated Classics' which are abridged versions of classic novels with pictures every other page. I read them when I was little, and I loved them because they were only abridged enough to be easy to read, not to dilute the content. I also found my LOTR books, a box set including the Hobbit, my copies of 'The House of the Scorpion', 'The Aeneid', 'The Odyssey', and the entire collection of the 'Everworld' series - I got the first book when I was 10 and finished the series about two years after that when I had all the other books (thinking about reading it again, kind of in the mood for fantasy but don't know how eager I am to re-read that particular series). But the books that I was really happy to find were my collection of Calvin and Hobbes books: The Essential Calvin and Hobbes, Homicidal Psycho Jungle Cat (my favourite ^_^), The Days Are Just Packed, Calvin and Hobbes, and The Revenge of the Baby-sat. Calvin and Hobbes is my very favourite comic strip, I love reading it when I can now, but I love reading it in the books more - my mom had two of the books and when I visited her when I was little I would read them while I watched cartoons and ate Fruit Loops out of the box. It wasn't made special because I was with my mom, it was made special because I was having fun and I wasn't stressed out, and to this day Scooby-Doo, Fruit Loops, and Calvin and Hobbes all brighten my day.

On a more depressing note, I also found a rough draft that someone once gave me to read of a story. I got it in high school, and it's a good story, a few years old, last worked on about 6 months before it was given to me. It's kind of a sad story, and finding it didn't exactly give me warm , fuzzy feelings. But finding everything else was great.

That's it, that's all of my day. I still have to pull my laundry out of the dryer, and I still have to shave, but then I'll be ready to crash and start tomorrow. Thing is...I don't want to start tomorrow, I'm not looking forward to going all the way to Palo Alto to pack up office supplies and furniture. But I keep telling myself it'll be over soon, and then I'm free, and I get paid pretty well, 10/hr, and I'll be working with a kid about my age, but I won't be able to treat him like a normal person because he's my boss' son. LAME!

So I'm off to fold clothes, and get my beard back to it's Sean Connery look. I'll blog again later this week!

Cheers!

-Shadow of Light

Pretty Pictures Like You...

"And he cried in a loud voice, 'Lazarus, come forth!' And Lazarus did arise from the grave..."

Best first words to a game EVER. The game would be Command and Conquer 3, and the speaker would be Kane. I'm not bringing this up for any particular reason other than I haven't posted in...a while. I of course have the game, but I haven't played in a LONG time, it's not on my computer and I ever really had time to use the computer it IS on, so I'm stuck somewhere in the middle of the Brotherhood of Nod campaign and I have no idea when I'll finish it. But I refuse to give up hope, and I refuse to give up - I will finish the game. And the I'll play the expansion pack. ^_^

All that to say: I'm back. I spent the last week babysitting my cousin without internet access and this weekend finishing the work from home I had for the woman I was working for. I would be finished with both for good, but I still have two days left to babysit, and I return tonight (so expect no posts over the next two days). But I'm happy to announce I get to take a nice, relaxing break after I finish. Actually that's not true. Immediately after finishing babysitting I get to go pack up an office building in Palo Alto for three days. Joy. BUT I will be able to take a break after that and go visit my aunt followed by visiting friends in the Bay before I return to school. Lots to do, and it feels like there's no time. sigh.

But here's the news since the last post. While babysitting, I started reading a series by author George R. R. Martin, with the book 'A Game of Thrones'. It's a good book (it's long), and while slow at first, it really picked up into a nice epic a lot like LOTR, and I'm eager to finish the book tomorrow or the next day, but I don't think I'm going to start on the second book. But I do recommend the book, it may or may not be your thing, but it is well written, and has a really good story to it.

Tonight's title is from the song 'Electrohead' by Combichrist, and it's been stuck in my head all week along with a few others. I've also been playing it all week, which is probably why I keep singing it. Along with listening to music I finally played some Fatal Frame 2 and it was going pretty well. The problem was I left one of the babysitting alarms on and it went off while I was playing, which is startling to begin with, as I mentioned in an earlier post, but wayyyy more terrifying when the ring tone is 'O, Fortuna'. It scared me more than The Wiggles. After I screamed, and ran away from my xbox I settled down and returned to turn it off and play some Mass Effect. It was an emotionally damaging few seconds.

I've also finished watching my collection of Avatar, and I'm waiting a week or so before I start all over again, and watching other shows and anime to fill the gap. I'm currently going through a Hayao Miyazaki phase right now though, and enjoying every minute of it. I watched Princess Mononoke today, and I'm going to watch My Neighbor Totoro later this week. Those are the only two I have right now, but I'd like to see Kiki's Delivery Service again, and of more Lupin the Third, because I've only seen one. I have a ways to go still.

In the current happenings section of life, I'm planning on making a mask when I can get the supplies, because I've finally figured out a good design for it. I'm also planing out some projects to do at school to keep myself busy and have fun. Rebuilding Pyle is my top priority of things to do back at school, followed my making a lamp out of chopsticks. Don't ask me how though, it'll be a surprise. The mask needs to come first though, because once I have mine made, and Pyle reconstructed and recovered - he gets one too. ^_^

I spent some time today talking on the phone with a friend of mine who was also the art teacher at my high school (I can't say "my" art teacher, because I never took art), and we talked about some of the projects she's done and I got some advice for some that I've done, and maybe if my schedule works out I'll be able to say hello to her this weekend at her daughter's 21st birthday.

Other than all that, I'm missing my friends, keeping myself busy with work that I never asked for (but that pay, so I'm not 100% against them), and trying in vain to keep in a good mood, which is difficult but manageable with my headache, but damn near impossible with some of the other stuff I put up with. I have spoken to a few people when time permits and that's calming and nice, I like checking in on people, seeing what's going on helping out when I can, etc. I txt my aunt when I get bored and try to cheer her up or joke around, which becomes yet another life line, and I've spent some time thinking about the basics I'll need when I move out. I figure planning ahead never hurt anyone. So far I've started from the kitchen: I need a few pots/pans a few dishes that fit my style (really want to get the metal dishes like La Fondue has), and I've also narrowed my dog choices down to three, with names for two. Either a Black Lab named Inara, a Golden Lab named River (both names from Firefly ^_^), or a wolf, name t.b.d. The first two are obviously female, but I'm pretty sure if I get a wolf I'm going to stick with a male. Who knows. I did talk to my aunt though, and if she doesn't have to spay the female Gold Lab she has right now, she might breed her, and I'll be able to get a pup from one of her litters, possibly even my choice of the litter ^_^ It's a long way off still, but it keeps me going.

All right, that's about it, I'll try posting something again as soon I can, but who knows when that will be.

Cheers,

Shadow of Light

Vi Veri Universum Vivus Vici

"By the power of truth, I, while living, have conquered the universe"

It's from Faust. It's also on the mirror in V for Vendetta (awesome movie), but I read it in Faust long before I saw the movie.

Sorry, starting with Faust quotes probably makes this post sound serious. It's not. Is it ever? I mean I'm serious about some things, and there is the little tiny post when I was depressed about not being able to go to the VNV concert, but I think I made up for that with like 5 other posts after that where I didn't shut up about them.

Anyways, it's late, I'm excited but kind of tired, and I'm probably going to fall asleep about an hour earlier than usual (so around 3ish). BUT I decided I should spend some time with you, and write something, especially since I was going to post yesterday and didn't. I crashed early instead because I worked today, and I had to get up early. I'm not terribly grumpy when I have to get up early with only a few hours of sleep, but I'm also not very happy. I tend to be dark and brooding and mean towards the weather, and walk around like an anime zombie, and not speak in complete sentences, but I don't really have the effort to add "being grumpy" to that list. It was a bit easier to wake up when I remember I was getting paid though. So I worked getting some one's paperwork together today which was basically a follow up to similar work I did two days ago, and for $10/hr I love it. I sat at home for the first pat and listened to my music while I googled stuff. That was my job. And today I sent emails from my employer's computer at my employer's house...and listened to my music. It didn't take a whole lot of time, but I was happy to find that my payment for the other day was rounded up ^_^

In other news from earlier in the week - I've been playing Ninety-Nine Nights waayyyy too much, but I finally unlocked the super cool character that I've wanted to play with since I bought it: a twelve y/o water sorceress. I know that may sound really sketch, but what part of "she can fly and cause massive tidal waves" doesn't sound fun?!?!!! I'm very happy with that, and she's turned out to be a really challenging player to use. It's still fun though.

And today I got to see my aunt, uncle and cousin who just came back from a trip around Europe. I was originally kind of jealous that the 5 y/o got to go to Europe, but I dropped all my animosity when I got a call from him and found out he was actually spending time enjoying the things I would enjoy. That was the only reason why I was jealous, I mean he's 5, I needed to be sure I could live vicariously through him. And I totally could. Anyways, we went to see them, and we got to see pictures from Italy, France, England, Germany, Hungary, Austria, and five or six other countries that I can't remember. I have a terrible memory :(

They have pictures from everywhere, and we saw a good selection, but for time we didn't dawdle. I really want to go back through them though, with a focus on the art/architecture from Italy, and with the pictures that they got of the Sistine Chapel, which they got without other people in the way thanks to a private tour (I admit, I'm jealous about that still). I also got the souvenirs I asked for, which I love very much, two Euro coins from Germany (one is 1 Euro the other is 2 Euros), and a coin from England (a 10 pence). I also asked for a post card, but I got that a while back (the Vatican has a super awesome postmark!). And then from the charity souvenirs I got a notepad, which I already used once (I wrote something I needed to remember, but I'm worried I might forget to look at the note...) and a shirt from France, which is ultra comfortable. And black. When those two things combine in a shirt, I'm sold.

And then we all went to Fontana's and had an awesome dinner. I've been there a few times, and they truly have a wonderful selection of food, some great specials, and awesome desserts. I had Kick-Ass risotto, and creme brulee. Then we went back to my aunt's and watched videos of my cousin as a baby. One of my other cousins was in it too, back when he had super long baby hair and he looked ridiculous! But they were both super cute, and we got to see how my cousin learned to walk. It was pretty funny.

My dog Brewer was also in it during the Christmas section and he had his seasonal collar that I bought him. For a Christmas gift when he was 3 or 4 I bought him a red collar with bells on it ^_^ We'd put it on him every Christmas, and he never minded it, but he always sounded seasonal during the holidays ^_^ Although sometimes we'd leave it on at night when we supposed to take off his collar (seasonal or not, because he wasn't a huge fan of having it on 24/7) and when he scratched his collar he made a huge racket and would wake me up. Although the fact that he slept on my legs also applied probably. I miss him :'(

That was the extent of visiting with my aunt and uncle and cousin tonight, and when I finish working this month I'm probably going to go spend some time with them, because it's super fun an awesome. Time with either of my aunt/uncle/cousin relations is (I have two), because I get along with both of my aunts, my cousins are fun to spend time with, and my uncles are corruptible and corrupting respectively.

Alright, I'm off to to and watch the last few Avatar episodes, because I don't own them (yet) and I've seen the other episodes twice each now. Have a good one, and hopefully I'll post soon!

Cheers,

Shadow of Light

Parlez Vous Freezepop?

HI!!! It's a MEEE!!!! ^_^

Soooo, it's been a while. I was gone for a while, and now I'm back. I wasn't 'gone' gone, I was at my mom's house trying to earn some money and, erm...visiting. Anyway, I didn't have an internet connection there but I was able to post Tweets via text messages when I had nothing better to do. I posted a lot of Tweets.

The work was interesting, and I have to admit, I didn't get paid very much for what I did, but any money is good right now. I got the super awesome job of moving concrete slabs from the back yard into a dumpster in the driveway. There were bonuses to this of course, I got to do all this in Farifield heat (pretty much the same as Azusa), and the concrete was poured years and years ago when it was super cheap so the slabs were 6-8 inches thick. And I did it for 50 bucks. So I hauled about 64 square feet of concrete that was anywhere between 6-8 inches thick to a dumpster in 103 degree heat for fifty bucks. All in all, I moved at least 2 thousand pounds maybe three, I almost completely filled the dumpster, and then I had two hours to relax before I got dragged to the gym. I couldn't move the next day.

But honestly, that was probably the best part about my visit up there, even though I got chased through the yard by spiders the entire time I was working. I used to really love going to visit my mom, but her relationship with her new boyfriend kind of drives me crazy. I like him, he's a nice guy, and it's entirely not his fault I hate the relationship. I'm glad she's happy, I'm glad she has a positive relationship, but I wish she'd act her age, or just somewhere close to it. I spent the entire week hearing how "amazing" he is, how he's the "perfect man", how he changed her life...they've been together about a year now. I've seen him a bunch. It was nice to hear the first month, glad to see her happy, but still???? Honestly I have no issues with people telling me all that when it's a momentous event, a first introduction, if I inquire first, if someone else hasn't heard the story, if I'm senile and forgetting, etc. But every free moment of everyday for five days?!? *gag*

But now I'm out of there, but I'm also back home, doing the same stuff as before. Lame. But there is some good news! I finally unpacked my 360, and I updated some of my games, like Left4Dead, and played some demos and looked at things to buy. I want to get the add-on for Fable 2 when I can afford it, I also want to be able to afford to transfer the songs from the original Rockband to Rockband 2, but I can't afford that either. In the way of games, I'm hooked on the demos for Overlord and Overlord 2, and I plan on getting them at some point, they're just way too much fun. I also found a magic the Gathering arcade game demo, and I'm hooked on that too. I've mentioned that I love the artwork, but I found the game to be kind of fun too, and with the Xbox game I won't actually have to buy cards! No luck selling mine either...

I also borrowed Fatal Frame 2 for the original Xbox from a friend, because I was in the mood to be scared completely out of my mind. I've been pumping myself up to play it though, and only during the day. A lot of good stories with that game. My senior year of high school when I hung out with my friend after school, we played Fatal Frame for hours in the dark until like 11 or 12 on weekends, and get totally freaked out. It didn't help that people were trying to reach me by phone during that time either, either my grandmother telling me to come home or the girl I liked and talked to every night. More than once we were watching the little anime Asian girl limping away (she has a limp, part of the story) from some creepy ghost bent on ruining our saved game would be crawling along the floor behind us while we tried to navigate through the Japanese village, hearing the default creepy-as-hell scream/howl when my phone ring tone would blast and make us breathe again. More than once we screamed. It was never a shrill long, horror movie scream, it was always a man scream - like a shout, but with fear - and then we paused the game and blinked from staring and started breathing again. We did this for about two months, enough that when Naomi called she could always guess that I was playing Fatal Frame with Alex because my voice was shaking. It also made driving home in the early morning hours really creepy.

So that's my goal sometime soon, to play again. I'm still kind of scared to play. I know what's in store for me. I remember one particular poltergeist that was a little boy who wore a bell - when alive - and you could hear the bell ringing as you explored, trying to find him. To find him though, you had to open a secret door that we kept walking by, so we just explored empty halls with the soft ringing echoing through the big TV speakers and around us in the room. It took us hours to figure it out, and we both heard the bell for the next few days 'cause it was stuck in our heads. This sound was identical to Little Shit's bell on his collar when I was in Alabama, and it got my heart racing whenever I had to go from my room across the hall to the bathroom (this could also be because he stalked me hen I left the room and jumped out from small, dark spaces...he's such a little shit). It is a creepy creepy game. But it's really well done.

Anyways, on something less creepy, I got back into Ninety-Nine Nights today. It really is a fun game, even though it feels a little repetitive. It's you're standard button-mash, adventure game, and it plays a lot like the Kingdom Under Fire games, but you actually have to learn to use the button combos, you can't just hit buttons indiscriminately, which is kind of nice, but a little stressful when you're trying to get the hang of it, and you have to start the entire level over again. But I think I'm almost done with the first hero's campaign. I like the graphics, and I like the music, and the story is pretty good, but some of the voices for the characters suck! Mainly the first two characters you can play with. I like most of the others. I look forward to playing some more tomorrow.

Tonight's title is from a Freezepop song of the same name. I actually really like the song, and I can see myself enjoying Freezepop on a larger level than just the song 'Tonight' - they have a fun sound, it reminds me of early Nintendo remixes and games. So I now have their album 'Fancy Ultra-Fresh' and I'm getting used to it. I also have two Ladytron albums, 'Light and Magic' and 'Witching Hour', and I'm listening to those too. I've heard songs by both bands, and I have my favourites, but they're both growing on me. For Ladytron I like 'Destroy Everything You Touch' and 'Seventeen' the most while for Freezepop, 'Tonight' is my ultimate favourite but I like 'Stake Out' and 'Parlez Vous Freezepop?' too.

Alright, I will leave you with that - music and games. ^_^

Cheers,

Shadow of Light *ring* *ring*

Unto the End and Back Again

Ever had one of those days where you're not in a bad mood, but you go thorugh all the same stuff you do when you are in a bad mood? For example, I let my mood dictate what music I listen to, and today I've been in the mood for a lot of the harsher tracks in my library, sticking with aggrotech, heavy EBM, dark industrial, etc.

Honestly, I'm not in a bad mood, I just have days when I want to listen to something raw, heavy, and somewhat apathetic. So that's what I've been listening to all day. The down side to not actually being in a bad mood and listening to the music is that I become really picky about what songs I listen to. I played Comichrist for a bit, but didn't feel it, then I moved onto God Module and Grendel since they're the newest albums in my collection, but I only felt like listening to half of them. So now I'm listening to Imperative Reaction with Suicide Commando's 'Love Breeds Suicide' thrown in every few tracks (seriously can't get that song out of my head). It's bound to end like it always does though, in either VNV Nation or Assemblage 23, and with songs that don't relate to anything else I've been listening to today. It actually started when I was playing my iPod on shuffle and I heard 'Circling Overland' a VNV Nation cover of the Front 242 song. I like it a lo-ot (watch the Hoops and Yoyo e-card for coffee).

All this has reminded me that I havn't heard VNV's 'DSM02' in a while. Or 'Electronaut'. They're both instrumentals, but DSM02 is heavy and dark (and kreepy in that fun way), and Electronaut is...epiphanic. I'll post a link to it at the end.

Now I can't get Electronaut out of my head. I'm not complaining mind you, it really has been WAY too long, it feels really nice to be hearing it. BUT my day doesn't revolve around music. Well...I mean, there's more in my life than just...what I'm trying to say is, I did other things too. Things like making a post before midnight. Things like working on another ring. Things like cursing at the jack ass that is setting off cherry bombs down the street...>_<

Today I actually had some fun though. I started work on another ring, and got it sized, but I'm probably going to be out of sandpaper after this, at least the heavy grit, I'm using my last one (I still have like five of the fine grain ones though!!!). I also started an Avatar marathon, seeing as I have all the episodes, along with getting hooked on 'The Riches' the last few days.

And that's about it. 'o_O Sorry, I'm all distractible and the like right now.

Cheers,

Shadow of Light